Somehow summer and fall have come and gone. The end of the year approaches and snow is on the ground. These last six months have flown by and I am still on sabbatical (ie: in my mid life crisis). I am living now in a beautiful old house built in the 1920's with friends and looking for work, making art, and voraciously reading and trying to figure out what comes next.
Dreams have been powerful these last six months and find myself completely amazed by the synchroniciy of what I find in the dreamtime. There has been a lot of healing happening for me this year. It seems a mess of anger, emotion and sorrow, but with some hindsight now I find it has mostly been about forgiveness. I am relearning how to build hope, how to make goals and create joy. There is a transformation happening. Something I have been desperatley wanting for the last many years.
There exists a person inside of me who has been lost. I have missed her desperatley. I can see her now in glimmers of the sun on the water, in the twinkle of light through the crystals in my room, through the music I hear and the plants that grow in my new space. And I am grateful for it. 2008 will soon come to an end. I look forward to 2009 with anticipation and happiness. May it bring us all what we need and bless us with what we can imagine.
